break up counting down?

Saturday, 65 mins phonecall, tears, blank....

Eventually, I decided to call off, though don't know its right or wrong. Time will tell.

What's difficult is not the actual "break up", but the huge, huge, huge blank left afterwards. By the age of 29, I m single again. Should I feel released? or sad about myself.

Monday, sitting in the office, trying hard to act normal.

Everything will be all right, one day...

nothing is perfect

nothing is perfect. appearance, work, study, performance, relationship, man, etc. NO SUCH A DAMME THING CALLED PERFECT!

This issue between me and Yo has been lasted like ever since we started 3 years ago. It goes explosion every half year or so. I've been fool myself and hoped that one day it would be alright. But it didn't and won't! I'm so confusing and so depressed. Do I really have to end everthing to get myself out of this place??? Yo kept calling but I don't know what to say to him. This is totally messs up!!!